I had an epiphany, I’ve been rolling the idea of marriage over and over in my mind. I truly don’t like the idea of marriage, how can you with our devoice being at 50% and it feels like the worlds going to hell. 60% of the You ES of A-holes is obese, which reflects the way our nation is, bunch of fact, redneck aristocrats. My mo is going to be getting married to one of the biggest ass, I know. But you know what? He’s so kind to her, and some how she sees something in him. For all his short coming he’s makes my mom happier than I ever seen her. I couldn’t figure out what I had against him, besides being a jerk to me. It’s the fact I hate my dad, and how horrible of a person he is. I’ve been masking the fear of loosing my mom with the assumption that he will be just like my dad, ruin her life all over. To under stand why I hate my dad you have to under stand y her hatred my half brother so much. He is jealous of my brother and blames all his problems on him. Use him as the biggest scapegoat goat in the history of his pathetic life. Yes my brother has his problems, but I bet if you trace them back you’ll see my dad is the center point if it all. He calls my brother “evil” and says he’s going to sue him…. For what? Who the fuck knows. He thinks the reason I hate him is cause my mom brain washed me lol “I shall laugh the worst laugh I have ever laughed” Robert frost. Have you ever heard of something so obtuse, how do you come to some conclusion like that? Further more he try to tell me my brother raped me. Take a second to think that over… He said I just blocked it out of my memory, how convenient for him I must say. Fuck you and your god damn existence I wish you never laid you seed of decent in my mom. True I wouldn’t be here but nether would suck a fucked up mans influence on my mom. A fear of becoming my dad in beneath my skin like a parasite it feeds off me taking my soul one bit at a time. Like pulling a devil out of me I disowned him from my life. Daren tried to tell me to keep him in my life, I have made him my enemy from his own deceptions and I will not let him find my weakness. Maybe one day he’ll realize his two children hate him and change, butt hope is just empty, how can a man like that eve change. He has instilled in me the fear of marriage, of failure, and this chains will be broken one link at a time.

please don't say i'm nothing like him